Move Forward
By John W. Vander Velden
Where has our days of youth
gone. Those times when we frolicked
woods and glen. Hours spent wading in
cold water of crystal streams. Or watching
our bobbers floating as we fished the neighbor’s pond on lazy hot summer
afternoons. Have they left us? Are they no more than a memory? I long for those
times, when melancholy seeks to drag me under.
No, they were not all pleasant.
Those joyful days had enough tears as well. But the years sweep us along, and we it seems,
but dust before that broom.
There are events that drag me
back to times past. Dramatic moments
that shake me to my core, and I wonder if others feel as I about time’s
change. With the sun’s rising a new day
begins. Each holds its promise…but when
I feel dark, those promises seem empty.
When news of world, of family, of friends comes deep and dank, breathing
in GOD’s beauty and promise is a difficult task. Laughter and a stiff lip may hide a broken
heart, but the heart is shattered all the same.
I understand that events of
the passed two years have placed me in this funk.
When the complexities of life have me longing for a simpler time. But were those days of youth less
tumultuous? Really? I didn’t think so at the time. Life it seemed then hinged upon one thing or
another. On things that now we know were
frivolous. Perhaps it is still so. Perhaps the things that drag us to emotional
depths are really insignificant…in the long run. But looking at the things that came recently,
I can’t believe there is anything frivolous about them. My world has been quaked…emotionally that
is. Time will, with its passing, bring a
clearer perspective. On that I am
sure. But now the dark tunnel
surrounds. Now I do my best not to be
trapped by the mire and to climb upward.
Effort is needed. Effort requires
strength, and strength requires energy.
It’s the last part I have
trouble with this morning…energy. So I
must draw a breath, take just a moment to notice the wonderful day I have been
given, and go on. Grit my teeth and go
on. Drag my self forward and go on. Today is a gift. I would insult the Giver if I did not
whole-heartedly enjoy all that it offers.
To look up, draw a breath, and march forward facing the wonder as well
as the challenges.
That must be the goal I set
for today. To move forward. “Baby steps” perhaps but “baby steps” in the
right direction is progress none the less.
Life has always had changes. And though these recent changes have been
dramatic. Though my world seems to have
become unhinged. I will look for blue
skies and star filled nights and understand a bit of my place among all the
grandeur of the world…and beyond. I will
accept that my task remains unfinished and move forward with new energy. I will move forward…I will…oh yes, I will!
(512 Words) 6-25-2016 (Updated 7-16-2022)
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