Friday, December 29, 2017

To Journey Via a Keyboard


To Journey Via a Keyboard                 
By John W. Vander Velden
 
Being a storyteller and a writer are not EXACTLY the same thing.  I am a storyteller that at times uses words to share that story.  Or a storyteller that writes.
But I have a problem.  You see I never understood the mechanics of language…completely.  I tell my writing friends that grammar is a foreign language.  Perhaps it is in my upbringing.  Perhaps, during my more malleable years, I didn’t give it sufficient effort.  Perhaps the papers returned drenched in red ink closed the door.  Who knows?  And at this point it doesn’t matter.
When I shed the fear of rules I did not understand.  When the stories within me screamed to be released, unbound from the chains of the fear of failing.  Then I began in earnest.  That would have been in 2000.
I wrote my first story, “Tree in the Meadow”, out of a need to tell that story.  I wrote accepting that I would have to hire others to clean it up, to correct the thousands of mistakes in grammar I knew I would make. 
I shared the first draft of that yet unpublished story with a trusted friend.  I was told that “it showed talent”.  That was enough to put the keyboard in gear.
So I began 411 Apple Street and the nearly seven year journey to the completion of the first draft.  Work’s demands changed in 2007 and pages progressed more swiftly.  I fell into a rhythm.  A book draft from September till March, a short story perhaps in the spring, some revising during the summer.  A large quantity of work came out of those five years. 
Then I felt I had a body of work sufficient that publication began to seem a possibility.  Things began to change.  Building an internet presence became another task to learn.  Blogging…. I knew very little of blogging when I set up my blog in March of 2012.  What I learned was it takes time…lots of time.  And often I wonder if it is time well spent.  How many times I considered ending Ramblings…Essays and Such…and yet each week I post another short.  Ramblings is a literary blog, if that makes any sense.  For nearly six years, week in and week out, I post an essay or what I call a micro-story.  Typically under 500 words.  There are more than 300 in the archive.
Rambling’s following is, even after all this time, a small number, but has grown in the last year.  Again I wonder of the value taken from other writing projects.  But I have learned a great deal from blogging.  I have learned how to distill to the core, to simplify a concept to a small enough bite size piece that can be covered sufficiently in a few paragraphs.  In other words to be concise.
Another side effect that has come from the experience is the volume of material written.  I have assembled forty some into a small book called Glimpses from the Window of My World which I have given as gifts.  Nearly each month my local paper prints one of my blog posts.  More than 50 have found their way into the Plymouth Pilot News and in that way I have reached many more than my weekly jaunt in cyber-land.
I have crossed 500 words and so I will, my friends, squeeze the closing.  Storytelling.  Now I stand on a new threshold.  My book Misty Creek will soon be published.  I consider the book a success just by reaching this point. 
There are other stories.  If God gives me a chance, I will tell those as well.  But each day, I will strive to be the storyteller I am.  It is my hope you will come along for the ride.
(624 Words)         12-15-2017

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Snow


Snow                                 

By John W. Vander Velden

                       

All around color dulled the day dimmed by thick sky.  Even midday the sun can not be seen as we move more out of obligation than joy.  The wind biting cold as we hide flesh beneath gloves, scarf and coat.  Suddenly a small bit of white visible, sailing the breeze.
 
Can it be? 
 
For surely there must be a first…the first flake…like no other.  The leader for many follow.  

The heavy sky laden, unloading its burden as all around the white flies.  At last the flakes reach their destination.  Soon many join their brothers covering the drab world with pure whiteness.  Soft they stack.  Time passes as they form art…drifting into soft depth shaped by the winds will.  So all around the world is changed…before our very eyes.  

The drab now gone replaced by the untainted…such is the power of snow!!!




(143 Words)                1-10-2012

Friday, December 22, 2017

2017 Christmas Letter





December 5, 2017

As the year winds down, time comes to consider what 2017 has been.  It is also a time to reach out to friends and family, those we only hear from once a year, and those that come in and out more frequently.
Where to begin?  The winters in Northern Indiana are certainly not the worse, weather-wise, to be found, but offer challenges none the less.  Last winter was not unusual.  But we have learned to deal with the snow, and the cold.  Having somewhere warm to hide is always good, and a furnace with plugged heat exchanger meant that for a few days things were cooler.  It only reminds how many things we take for granted.








 
An emergency run to Chicago to help Nick and his stranded Jeep reminded us that our vehicles, all of them, were getting old.  Or do you say mature.  Our Malibu, the newest, had 120K, while Nick’s Jeep had more than 180K.  Had hoped to postpone an auto purchase until Nick graduated, the university has its own financial thirst, but “the best laid plan of mice and men” fell to the wayside.  In any case a Jeep Renegade came to our garage.  Jackie named “her” Pearl.  No argument from the “peanut gallery”.  Winter…four wheel drive…seems like a match to me.
But a new vehicle was not the biggest change of the year.  For after all it was the first year I didn’t put in a crop.  Retired is too large a word for the change.  I am in transition from farming to something else…it won’t be leisure to be sure.  But though I’m still busy the biggest change is that the stress level.  So it’s raining…big deal.  That kinda’ thing.  But it also offers me more flexibility.  So we pushed back our spring escape into April.
A road trip to the Florida Panhandle, a first.  If you live in Indiana, the Panhandle is the closest Florida.  And in early April the weather can be delightful.  The sugar white beaches and emerald water at Fort Walton Beach must be  more than seen…a sensory experience that is beyond words.
 
Our week was filled with sunny days and warm breezes and hectic times.  We managed to see a few lighthouses…no surprise there…an aircraft museum…while reserving time for shopping, walking on the beach, and experiencing things beyond our everyday normal.
In May Nick finished his fifth co-op rotation at Zimmer-BioMet.  It has been a learning experience to say the least.  Dealing with real life situations helped him understand better the world he would enter.  But the semester breaks from classes made dialing in those skills more difficult.  The summer began his race to graduation.  Three sessions back to back, the longest straight through at PU will strain him but the end of the tunnel is in sight.  And there is an end of that chapter or a beginning of the next.  In October he accepted a position at Altec in Elizabethtown, Kentucky.  So next summer he will be leaving his home state and starting his own career, his parents proud but sad that he goes so far afield.
With repairing storm damage and mowing yards, plural, and all the ordinary things of summer, kept us hopping.  Yet between it all we made our way north to the great U.P. of Michigan.  Our last trip across the great bridge left us yearning.  And so we went to see a part of the Upper Peninsula we had not seen before, Pictured Rocks National Lakeshore.  Of course our trip included lighthouses.  We saw six new ones.  At least they were new to us.  The weather was fantastic for hiking, shopping, the boat ride among the rocks, and lighthouse climbing.
 
In October I was able to share with Jackie a place I’d experienced three years before when I attended a writing conference in central Ohio.  A five day escape to Yellow Springs and the surrounding area a getaway we will remember.  Walking was a big part of that trip.  Hiking in Clifton Gorge, Glenn Helen, and John Byran State Park, walking miles each day of up and down over rocks and streams filled our days.

But life is more than vacations, even great vacations.  Jackie is on her third year as a pharmacist at Martin’s Supermarket in Plymouth.  Like all jobs there are good days and…well…others.  She enjoys the people she works with and the patients that have come to her for years.  But her life is more than the hours in the pharmacy and she enjoys her flowerbeds, shopping and long walks. 
Nick nears the end of the semester and will look forward to a couple of weeks of slower pace.  January begins the final months of his Purdue career and so we look forward to graduation in May.  He works hard at his studies and the long hours have taken their toll.  But a few days should recharge the batteries and fuel the race toward the end.
Though I have turned the “farm” reins over to my nephew Justin, I remain as I said before busy.  Among the things that keep me occupied is my writing.  Even now I anxiously await the proof of Misty Creek the first of my novels to be published.  I expect it to be available after the first of the year.  
So you see that the Vander Veldens of Marshall County remain busy in many ways.  But we are not so busy to forget all the people that make up our lives.  Those nearby and others scattered around the globe.  We take this time to remember YOU! And to say to each of you, may Christmas be the special time it can be.  That you feel GOD’s love each day.  That you recognize the blessing that come.  That love always exists in your heart and your home.
We wish you a very Merry Christmas, and that GOD gives you good things for 2018.
 


The Vander Veldens…Jackie, John, and Nicholas too!!! 
 
 

Friday, December 15, 2017

Payin' Attention


Payin’ Attention           

By John W. Vander Velden

 

I spent some time talking to a person who told me that among his duties at work he was responsible for tasks he had no “official” training.  His co-workers asked how he knew those skills.  His response was he had worked with others and had paid attention.  I knew a man that became a foreman, getting the promotion over others simply because he paid attention.  He understood and could repair each machine on the line when others that had worked far longer couldn’t.  He had taken the effort to observe and to learn.
We live in a world that at times believes that all knowledge must come from the classroom or other places set up for teaching.  And much learning comes from those institutions.  But the problem is when we ignore the fact that so much training comes to us from the “school of hard knocks”. 
Life is happening all around us and the choice is ours.  Do we observe and learn or just slide by.  When I consider all the different things I have been asked to do, I remember the times when I learned on the fly.  When I took the things I knew, whether I learned them in the classroom or on the job, and built new knowledge to get the task done and in the process gained another skill.  Which is not to say that I didn’t make mistakes.  Sometime our fear of making mistakes keeps us from trying and not trying the greatest failure of all.  If we really pay attention then mistakes are just another learning tool.  But we must not only have the courage to try…knowing that at times we will fail, but we must objectively look at our failings so we do not repeat them.  That mean also admitting our weakness and failings, building strength through repetition…steps forward and steps back and steps forward again.
As for me I see my life changing, the things I must do take a different set of skills than past’s duties.  But I have not cast off the things I know, the things I have learned, the things years in the “mud and blood” of realities have taught me.  No, I give nothing away while gaining new abilities.  The years of farming are behind me, but they are not lost.  Memories of tasks such as repairing a feeder in subzero weather, of welding up jigs to pull together parts to be reassembled, of framing up walls, of plumbing and electrical jobs beyond number, these are skills I have not lost.   So as I sit more at the keyboard, I remember and I continue payin’ attention….   

(440 Words)                  12-12-2017

Friday, December 8, 2017

Who Am I?


Who Am I?               


By John W. Vander Velden

 

Who am I?  I expect that many reach the point in their lives when they ask those three words.  Perhaps there are those who consider such introspective quests as foolish.  And there may be some just too busy to take the time.
I have these last years allowed that question to cross my mind from time to time.  It has nothing to do with my genealogy.  I don’t need “Ancestry.com” to verify my genes.  I have volumes that lay out my family tree.  Rather I approach the question with what have I done with the material my forefathers and mothers have given me.
It may be silly, but I think each of us should consider who we have become…what we are…now.  The list of things that I have been, is long.  Son, husband, father, employee, employer, and a thousand other “personal descriptions”.  Surely three score plus years sufficient time to gather such notations. And even now I have several things that I do my best to juggle.  Some of these things others might call titles…I just consider them part of who I am. 
I feel that a person needs to be connected to the world around them.  Not necessarily the great big globe of the world, but their community…their family and friends and others.  Work creates a circle of people, and when one retires that circle can shrink.  Not that mine has.  So I am connected…deeply connected, and partly because it is who I am.
So who am I…really?  I look in the mirror and see a face with a few more wrinkles, hair that has changed color and I ask myself.  Uncertain that I am qualified to answer and wonder who might be.  That thought does not hang in the air long for I understand that only GOD knows the compete answer.  It should be enough…but it isn’t.  No, if I believe I am on the road toward perfection, I need to be continually improving.  Ouch!
GOD will accept me as I am…but who am I?  I am but a man trying my best to do my best…and failing…often.  Perfection….Hmmm… If I am truly on that road then perfection is beyond the horizon or at least around many bends far out of sight.  For I am just human, striving for things, that are at this point, out of my reach, but knowing I need to reach anyway.
I care.  I care about a great many things.  Some might say I care too much.  It is not a point I will argue.  Caring has its price, at time that price is high, but it has its rewards as well.  Surely I am disappointed…regularly.  Surely loss strikes me as hard as others.  But I cannot imagine going through life and NOT caring.  You see it is part of who I am.  Blended within that caring is a faith that promotes…caring.  For GOD loved the world….  Should I not try to love as well?
So I find myself in a mixed up world looking for answers, and knowing that world does not understand me…really.  That within the who I am, I know a few answers…a few important answers.  Among them is, that there is a purpose even for someone like me.  That GOD placed me here for a reason…a reason I may be unable to fathom at this time, but a reason all the same.  Knowing these things and just a basic knowledge of my own personality helps me shape the direction I push myself.  I may think I am creating the person John V. is becoming, but I know better.  For I understand that I am the clay in the artist’s hand, being formed by my GOD into who I am.

(626 Words)         6-20-2017

Friday, December 1, 2017

Moving Toward the Unknown


Moving Toward the Unknown

By John W. Vander Velden 

The title I used this week fits life in general, but I use it in this post to speak of my newest endeavor.  In truth it is a trip I began in August of 2010 when the first words of a story made their way to the computer screen.  That’s when I began the story of Elizabeth Beck, the answer to a challenge my beloved made, “Your stories are so sad, can’t you come up with a happy one?”
Misty Creek is that story.  Not that it doesn’t have its share of sadness.  Light and dark are needed to make contrast.  That’s the photographer talking.  But I wrote Misty Creek for Jackie and it ran long, word count that is.  After the first series of revises I let her read it.  When she reached the end of Part 5 and said it could end there.  My editor disagrees.  But I saw her point and I split the story into two books.
In the final two revisions Misty Creek grew by twenty percent to a volume it became.  The second half, titled, Elizabeth’s Journey, calls for my attention.  I hope to begin a new revise of that book after New Year’s.
But for now I have a new uncharted territory to cover….publishing.  The ending of a long story is I’m self-publishing.  I found and am working with a wonderful organization from Charleston, SC.  The cover is designed and I could not be more pleased.  In just a few weeks I will see, perhaps digitally, the first proof copy.  The adrenalin is a pumpin’.  Then the game changes for I will have to be active, to some degree in marketing.  New experiences…unknown lands.
So wish me luck while I continue moving toward the unknown, and I’ll send a prayer your way as well.  

Friday, November 24, 2017

Take a Breath and Look Around


Take a Breath and Look Around

By John W. Vander Velden

 

We live within a consumer driven economy.  Constantly bombarded by ads that make us desire more.  New cars have features our “rust buckets” lack, they build houses these days with such handy qualities not to mention the extra room we long for.  Whether it is the furniture that we collapse in after a hard day at work, or the size of the TV, or other electronic gadget, we chase after a moving target.  Sometimes it seems that we are coaxed to buy by a “carrot on a stick”, seeking the next thing before the warranty expires on what we have.
I am as guilty as anyone.  We all want the latest, the newest, the best.  It’s only natural, and the marketing guys know it.  But this post is not meant to point a blaming finger at you or me.  What I want you to think about isn’t the desire for the “next” thing, but rather to dwell a moment upon what things you have now.  Shouldn’t we be grateful for what we have?  Shouldn’t we be grateful for where we are?  Shouldn’t we be grateful for the people that make up our lives?
It is by changing our focus from what’s next to what we have, that can change us.  I think back to when we didn’t have a phone in the house, while I hold my cell in the palm of my hand.  No, it’s not a new phone, but it still can call nearly anyone on the face of the earth.  Kinda’ amazing don’t you think.
So take some time to remember when those things you take for granted first entered your reality.  Color television, central heat, the microwave, and all the other “things” that surround.  This is a suitable time of the year to catch your breath, while all the “Black Friday” ads coax us into the next purchases, and in that pause realize that we have a great deal.  That life will go on without the newest, the biggest, the fastest, the smartest, the whatever-est.  Take the time to watch the sun’s setting, to call your mother, or your child, or your grandchild.  Listen to the sweet sound of their voice be they near or far.  Take time and share it with those that matter.  The scent of a good cup of coffee or fresh baking cannot be purchased no matter what the advertisers tell you.  Savor life!  The good things, and yes, the rough parts as well.  For each day is a gift, a gift we too often take for granted.
So today, though my joints ache, I take a breath and look around, and I thank my GOD for all he has given…for HE has given a great deal….
And I hope you will too….

(462 Words)  11-22-2017

Friday, November 17, 2017

Raking Leaves


Raking Leaves

By John W. Vander Velden    

 

 

          There is a yard we care for that is within the city limits of a nearby city.  The reasons we are responsible for that particular yard really doesn’t matter.  We have that responsibility and we care for that yard.  Throughout the summer I mow the lawn.  In the winter I need to keep the sidewalks cleared.  Snow you understand.  But during the fall, it is leaves that require our vigilance.
There is only one tree on the property.  Just one.  But it is a large maple, and maples have a lot of leaves.  Sorry Mrs. Lambert.  Maples have a great many leaves.  My teacher told us that “a lot” was only properly used to describe the area needed to build a house.  But the leaves I blow to the edge of the street are not just maple leaves.  Or at least not just the leaves from that solitary maple tree.  For example thousands and thousands of leaves settle in the back yard and there isn’t a tree back there at all.

The house sits on the corner of two tree-lined streets.  Across the way is a property with ten oak trees.  Those leaves come later.  But the leaves I move do not have labels indicating ownership.  They just need to be moved and moved to a schedule.  It might not seem fair that we need to rake up other people’s leaves.  Can’t they keep control of their own trees, for pity’s sake?  But it really doesn’t bother me, because I know that the wind carries our leaves to other places as well.  They are just leaves, sometimes only a few, most times many, that need to be piled along the curb for the city to haul away.

It’s a job.  Not that I get paid for moving leaves.  But a job that needs to be done and I take a bit of pride in doing it and doing it well.  And most of the people of the neighborhood must feel the same way, because the leaves line the street as far as I can see.  You see we all understand that it is more than about whose trees produced the leaves that settle all so gently on the grass.  It is about caring for your little part of the neighborhood, and in doing so making the whole place a little nicer.

Perhaps there are some that get frustrated.  Perhaps there are some that get angry. But if they do they haven’t spoken to me about it.  It’s life, and for six or seven weeks in the fall each of us rake leaves and not really care whose leaves they once were.

You see during the heat of summer that tree-line street offers shade.  A most pleasant break from the sun’s rays.  And the shadow of each tree is not confined to property lines.  Maybe that’s why few complain about the leaves each fall.  That the benefit we get from those same leaves demand a kind of payment, and after months of shade a few, well maybe more than a few, hours labor is a small price to pay.

So I rake leaves, and I think about all the other good things in my life that require a little “payback” and I bite my lip when I feel like complaining….

(549 Words)   11/14/2017

Friday, November 10, 2017

Childhood


Childhood

 

By John W. Vander Velden

 

If there is one thing that all adults share, it is childhood.  Not that my childhood was just like yours or that yours was like anyone else’s. Childhood isn’t just a title hung on a particular set of years, it is all the experiences of our youth.  We share the fact that we grew up…or at least I hope we have grown up.  We share the process, not the things that occurred to us as we did so.  We all share the broader concept of what childhood was…and is.  A time when we learned so much about the life we live. 

For me, like most, those years, which now live in my memory, were a time filled with joy, heartache, and were mostly what we would call the dull ordinary days between.  But each day, whether I recognized it or not contained lessons just for me.   You see that is what we share.  Not the thousands of experiences that was our individual childhood but that we, each of us, had experiences, faced lessons, many hard learned, and grew.  So when we look back, and not all do, we should do so objectively. That isn’t easy, as we focus on good times or bad…those days we would wish to relive…others we had hoped to forget.  But with the attitude that each moment is a learning experience, a step toward a new place, maybe we can understand ourselves better.  

Childhood is the past. It is something in each of our pasts.  But though the past holds lessons learned, we are not bound prisoner by it.  Learn and go forward.  Learn and grow.  Learn and when it is wise to do so, change.

(282 Words)   6-24-2017

Friday, November 3, 2017

The Past


  The Past

By John W. Vander Velden

 

My dad remembered his past.  He did not speak often to me about the world in which he grew up.  But when kin or friends from Holland came for a visit they would spend hours reliving the years of long ago.
Dad remembered, and dad thought that remembering was important.  But he never took the time to consider why it was important.  He never dwelled on the whys.  The past was exactly that…past.  It brought you to the now, but how it did, really didn’t matter to him.  He was well read and could discuss many topics.  He carried strong opinions…often unswayable views.  But he never saw the reason to just study how the things that had happened in his life shaped the man he became.  I don’t think he ever took the time to even consider exactly what he was.  My father was a decent, hardworking, Christian man, and that was enough.
Jacob Vander Velden, my father, told me I thought too much.  Maybe I do.  It’s nothing new.  I guess I have always “thought too much” about too many things.  He told me I thought too much about my faith.  I’m not certain that’s even possible.  To dad GOD was GOD and that was enough.  He trusted GOD in every aspect of his life without question.  Perhaps I envy that.  Then again perhaps dad kept his questions private between himself and the Master of the Universe.  Fearing that if he didn’t, his children might get the wrong idea.  GOD was GOD, JESUS saves, and the HOLY SPIRIT was everywhere and in us all.  That was clear…black and white…and to him it seemed enough.
He’d learned it in his childhood…his past.  And he did not dwell upon the meanings of his past.
I look at things closer.  I study the whys, when my mind races back to years ago.  Sometimes late at night.  Sometimes when I ride my bike or walk down the road.  I have this need to figure out…why…and how…and sometimes the when.  I understand that these things built me piece by piece.  I also understand the GOD’s hand was in the building one way or the other.
But for me these “deep” thoughts are important.  To remind myself that events touched me in more ways than the obvious.  That I have at times been supported and other times hurt.  Remembering my “feelings” should help me to always consider the feelings of others and tread more carefully.
Yet there were times I was insensitive.  There were time I blundered stomping on the emotions of others “willy-nilly”.  Times when I place my own needs first.  You see I’m human.  But that is not a good excuse.  I understand that I’m not perfect, but….
         As time passes I think about those actions as well.  Those are the most troubling memories, as I wonder how I could have been so thoughtless or careless.  They are the difficult things I face when I judge myself…harshly.  Even years later those failings haunt me.  Growth comes from both successes and failures.  I must remind myself that by not sweeping those events aside as no value, I show myself that I have learned…something.  I understand that perfection is beyond my reach, but my imperfection cannot be an acceptable reason for poor behavior that happened years ago…might happen today…and likely will happened tomorrow.

Maybe that’s the most important thing about the past…my personal past that is…and my continuous evaluation of my history.  To understand me…better.  To strive to make me…better.  To look forward and know that I am both good and evil, but to do my best to keep the dark parts under control.  Always trying to tap in the very best GOD has given me.  To learn from my mistakes and humbly accept my successes.  For today, I stand upon a foundation of the past’s stones, doing my best, with GOD’s help, to build myself into something better for tomorrow.  

(665 Words)         9-25-2017

 

Friday, October 27, 2017

The Rembolt House


The Rembolt House  

A Halloween Story

By John W. Vander Velden             

 

I was new to the area and I stopped at the hardware for deck stain.  At the checkout an old man came up behind me his eyes moving from my head to toes.  “You bought that house on the lake.”  He said as if I didn’t know where I was living.
He swayed slightly as he drew his bushy white brows down.  “That big gray house next to the Rembolt place.”
He must have noticed the confusion in my eyes.
“That old stone house in the trees.  Nobody lives there.”
My mind went to the thick grove of trees and brambles south of my place that had swallowed an old tumbled down pile of rocks.  Part of the roof had fallen in years ago and a cottonwood grew up through the gap.  I nodded at the old gentleman.
“You’d be the sixth that bought that place.”
I understand that houses change hands, but the house wasn’t old so that fact surprised me.
“’Spect you’ll leave soon.”
Now I couldn’t remain silent.  “And why would I leave?”
“Oh, you won’t want to, but there’s something about the Rembolt house.  You’ll see soon enough.”
I noticed the cashier shake her head.
“So the place is haunted?”  I asked not being able to keep the smile from forming on my lips.
“I didn’t say that.”  The old man began.
“There’s always been stories…”  The cashier interrupted.
“Stories, Bah.”  The old man set his bag of screws on the counter and shaking his head he walked out without them.
“Pay no attention to old Charlie.”  The cashier whose tag said Misty smiled.  “He’s got a story about everything.”
“Then he’s a local?”  I asked.
“Lived hereabouts before Camden was anything more than a four way stop on the highway.”
“So he’s an old timer?”
“He’s old, that’s for sure.”
When Misty handed back my credit card, I picked up my two gallons of stain and backed out the doors to the street.  Charlie was leaning against my Chevy truck waiting.
He wore a button down shirt that may have once been white with thin green stripes, over dark green work trousers.  As I approached he held out his hand.  “I’m Charles Chapwell.”
I took his hand surprised the strength in the old man’s grip.  “I’m Marty Anderson.”
The slightest smile came to his lips as he asked.  “Any kin to Daniel and Mary Anderson?”
I shook my head.  “They from around here?”
“Were, but that’s been a while ago.  Dan was my best friend’s brother.  When we were kids you understand.”
Now looking at the man I guessed was at least eighty I didn’t know what to say for a moment.  “My family’s from Michigan.”  I said at last.
He just nodded.  “So why’d ya buy that house on the lake?”
“We wanted a place to get away.”
“Picked the wrong place.”  The smile left his face as turned to face me.
“I don’t know Charles.  This seems like a nice area…”
He leaned forward.  I feared he would fall over me.  “Yeah, this area is nice, but you’re too close to the Rembolt house.  That place should have been torn down seventy years ago.”
I tilted my head a bit.  “Why hasn’t it?”
“Legal mumbo-jumbo.  Every time some bring it up to the county council it gets shot down.  The commissioners know enough not to fight the Rembolts.  Not one of them have set foot in the county for years but that don’t matter.  They pay the taxes and maybe more and so that shack still stands.”
“Hmmm.”
“And just because the trees hide it from the road don’t mean a thing.  That place is just evil.”
I would have thought the old guy was just pulling my leg, taking the new guy for a ride, so to speak.  “It’s just an abandoned old house.”  I answered as I looked him over again.
“I’m just warnin’ ya.”
I wasn’t sure if it was a warning, or some sort of threat, not that the old man, fit as he seemed, was in any condition to threaten.
I looked him straight in the eyes.  “What makes you think that place is evil, Mr. Chapwell?”  I just tacked his name into the question to remind the guy I knew his name.
He looked down, shook his head and said, “That house et my best friend.”
I blinked, tilted my head and asked.  “The house ate your friend?”
Mr. Chapwell nodded once rocked slowly to the left and then to the right.
“It were a hot October Sunday, and I went over to Jim Anderson’s ta see if he wanted to go fishin’.”  His eyes focused on mine.  “His pa said that it was Ok so we went to the lake at the head of the little creek that runs into town.  Folks hadn’t given the Crescent Lake and Youst Creek names yet back then.”  He looked away as if trying to picture the scene.  “The lake was just across a couple of fields from the Anderson’s Farm.  We’d been fishing at the lake lots of times, so it weren’t nothing for us to grab a couple of poles and head out.”
“Was the fishing good at the lake?”  I asked.
He turned to look at me again, his eyes dreamy.  “Usually.  But not that afternoon.”  He looked down a bit and went on.  “It didn’t matter none, we wus friends and whether the fish were bitin’ or not we had a good time, talkin’ mostly.  We sat on the west bank with the sun on our back so we could see into the water better.  Didn’t notice the storm clouds that come up behind us til the wind came settin’ the trees to swayin’.”  The old man looked back into my eyes.  “Before we gathered our stuff there was lightning strikin’ all around us.  Took off running ta home, but figured it weren’t safe ta cross the open land so we decided to hole up in that old stone house.  The Rembolt’s had abandoned the place long before I was born.”
I lowered my right eyelid wondering if what I had heard was true, that Charlie Chapwell could tell a good yarn and if he was busy weaving me one.
“I told Jimmy that we oughtn’ to stay away from that place.  That there were plenty of stories even then about the strange things that happened there.  But the storm was a howlin’ and the thunder like ta shook my ribs outa’ my chest.  “We’ll just stand on the porch.””  I says to him.
“Come on,” he says, “it’s daylight and all.  Ain’t nothing gonna happen to us in the daylight.”
“But the clouds were so thick that it could’ve almost been night.  There was a window with a broken pane that opened to the porch.  Jimmy he looked into the kitchen and tried to lift the sash.  “Why don’t we try the door?”  I asked, and sure enough it was unlocked.”
“That’s more than seventy year ago and I still can remember how I felt as we went into that empty house.”  The old man shook his head as once again he looked down.  “The air was stale, musky and dust covered everything especially the floor.  Even though we were the first to walk those dusty floors in a long time, the hairs on the back of my neck made me certain we weren’t alone.”
The man turned facing the lake far beyond our sight and swallowed.  “I told Jimmy we had to get.  But the thunder and flash of close lightning seemed to hold us there just inside the open door.  Another flash lit Jimmy’s face, I saw it plain, a strange smile and wild eyes.  He turned and without saying a word dashed up the stairs.”
From the top of the stair and outa sight I hear him call, “Come up here Charlie…there’s something ya gotta to see.”
“You can forget that, cause I ain’t going up there.”  I yelled back.
“Then that feeling that something was wrong come over me stronger.  “I’ll wait for you on the porch.”  I shouted.”
The storm kept on, the wind, thunder, and lightning.  I watched the water churnin’ on the lake and the trees bendin’ and swayin’.  My heart was a beatin’ thump, thump, thump, I could feel it in my ears, and I kept tryin’ to get my air.  I don’t know how ta describe it, but I felt like I was  drownin’” Then Chapwell looked me directly in the eyes.  “It was then I heard the most awful sound, loud it was, louder than the storm.  Like a scream of pain or a cry for help, but somehow I knew it weren’t human.  It came outa that house.”  The old man’s eyes were wet.  “I yelled as I turned to go back in for my friend but at that instant lightning struck, where I don’t know but it was so close that I found myself on the ground later, drenched wet, lightning flash blind, and thunder deaf.”
“I lay there afraid, finally able to crawl on all four all the while the storm raged around me.  If any other sound came from that cursed house, I couldn’t hear it.”
Chapwell looked skyward.  “We never found any trace of Jimmy…nothing.”
I looked hard at the man leaning against my truck.  “You expect me to believe that your friend was swallowed by some old house?”
The man straightened, drew his bushy eyebrows down.   “What you believe…that’s up ta yu.  I’m just tellin’ you what happened that day.”
I shook my head not accepting any of the nonsense I’d heard.
“You got your doubts.  Well fine, just go to the marina.  There’s a fella that works there.  Barney’s the best outboard mechanic in these parts.  But he won’t tell ya so cause he ain’t said a word in nigh on forty years.”  He leaned closer.  “Not since he got drunk and bragged he was gonna knock out the glass of the last window of the Rembolt House.”
I blinked.
“Well the glass got broken but Barney ain’t said a word since that night.”  Chapwell turned but as he left he said over his shoulder.  “You should ask him…maybe he’ll tell ya.” 
Now I didn’t give much credence to the story Charles Chapwell told me that morning.  Though I found myself looking out of my bedroom window late at night.  But I saw nothing more than brush and trees.  But I was glad when on my weekly trip to Harriet’s Café on the corner of Leeper and Main that Manny Wilcox was seated at the counter.  He welcomed me to join him and his friends so I sat.  After the introductions I asked Manny.  “I know you have a boat, do you get it serviced at the marina?”
“Sure, when it needs work, which isn’t often, I take it over to Carl’s.”  He said with a smile.  He ribbed me.  “Bout time you get a boat.  I know of a real fine Master Craft…”
“Maybe next summer,” I interrupted.
I placed my order of eggs and hash browns and then asked the question I wanted answered in the first place.  “You ever meet the mechanic there?”  I couldn’t remember the name.
“You mean Joe or Barney.”  Said Leo Parker who sat on the other side of my friend.
That was his name.  “Uuhh…Barney.”  I said at last.
“Barney’s great with outboards, but if you’re got a sterndrive or inboard, Joe’s the one you want.”
“But you guys have met Barney?”
A chuckle moved through the group.  “Yeah we all know Barney.”  Manny said.
“I’d like to talk to him.”  I stammered.
Manny tilted his head, “About what?”
“My dad has an old Johnson, real old,” I lied, “and I might want to get it fixed.”
“He’ll be able to fix it, that’s for sure, but he’s not going to talk about it.”  Laughter erupted as if a joke was shared by them.
“What do you mean?”
Manny calmed down his friends.  “Barney can’t talk.”
I blinked as I feigned surprise.  “Born mute?”
That’s when the guy at the end of the counter, Greg Garrison his name, spoke.  “From what I heard he was a chatty kinda’ fella…once.”
“Really,” I asked, “he have an accident?”
“No one knows for sure.”  Nanny answered.  “He won’t tell.  I guess he could write something out, but he doesn’t.”
“There are sure a lot of stories about Barney.”  Said Harold James that sat between Nanny and Leo.
“If you’re curious,” Greg added, “Charlie Chapwell is the one to ask.”
Now there was just the person I wished to avoid.
“Have you met Charlie?”  Nanny asked.
“Yes,” I said, “what do you think of him?”
Nanny smiled as he looked my way.  “Old Charlie is alright.  He gets worked up from time to time.  But he knows everything about this place.”
“And he’s more than willing to tell you or anyone else.”  Harold chuckled.
I moved the conversation to other subjects, the weather and golf.
After Church I caught up with Nanny again.  “Why hasn’t anyone torn down that old abandoned house next to me?”
“Oh, you have been talking to Charlie.”
I looked toward the sky an instant.
Nanny smiled.  “You have to know that the Rembolts owned the lake and all land around it.  They held it with an iron fist.  The county wanted to develop the whole area.  What’s the use of having a piece of water as big as Crescent Lake and no access?  That’s when they struck a deal.  The Rembolts sold everything but where their house was, on the stipulation that it be left as it was.  I don’t know the reasons, since nobody from the family has set foot in that place in forever.”
“So the county will not even consider…”  I began.
“If you had any idea how much taxes this county gets from all those houses like ours… Well it just makes sense.  What’s one old place?  You can’t even see the place from the road or the lake most of the year.
I will admit that the things I had heard set me to thinking.  But we had lived there for nearly two months and hadn’t seen anything unusual, so I kept my concerns to myself.  Didn’t seem any reason to upset my wife.
Sunday afternoon, my wife Lisa and I were sitting on the deck admiring the lake reflecting the blue of the sky.  She had just brought me some coffee when she said.  “Did you know that old place beside us is cursed?”
I nearly gagged, the hot coffee burned in my nose.  “What?”  I asked as soon as I could clear an airway.
She looked over my way as if she had just announced that it was Sunday or something.  “While you were talking to Nanny Wilcox, Janet Waters came over and told me.”
“Told you that the old place beside us was cursed?”  I tried to be nonchalant.
“Well, she didn’t just come over and say, “You live beside a cursed house,” if that’s what you mean.”
My hand began shaking slightly so I set my coffee down.  “But she did tell you, right.”
“We were talking how the new shutters on the Adam’s house were the wrong color.  You know you just can’t put green shutters on a blue house and get away with it.”
I had no idea where this conversations was heading and how Joe and Iva Adam’s house up the street had induced such revulsion that the concept of house cursing flowed out of the conversation.
I tried to focus on what was said, green shutters?  “What does shutters have to do with cursed houses?”
“Nothing silly,” she said with a smile.  But Milly Danver overheard us talking and came over.”
I couldn’t put a face on whoever Millie Danver was.  “So this Millie told you about the cursed house?”
“Of course not.  She just said we were lucky that there were no neighbors on that side of our house.”
I waited a moment but she just took a sip of coffee.  “Then Janet told you about…?”
“Your just jumping ahead again Mike.  It was Mrs. Lawton.”  Lisa said with a slight shake of her head.  “You know the older woman with the blue hair stacked up.  She was the one wearing the yellow dress.  It really didn’t become her…”
“And she told you about…”
“You know I don’t like it when you interrupt.”
“Sorry, but I hoped you would get to the point.”  I was beginning to feel anxious.
She set down her coffee and stared at me.  “You have heard something?”
I shook my head.  “Nothing about the place being cursed.”  I said doing my best to give the appearance of total innocents.
She rocked a bit in her chair.  A sign she didn’t quite believe me and I was to tell her….EVERYTHING.
So I told her about Charlie and how his friend had vanished and told her the rumor about Barney’s not speaking.  When I had finished she said.  “Well it all makes sense now.”
I had to blink.  How did any of this make sense?
Lisa shook her head.  “Well it does to me.”  The left corner of her lip curved up.  “I suppose it will to you too if I tell what Agnes told us.”
I shook my head.  “Agnes?”
Her brows came down a little.  “Mrs. Lawton.”
“Oh that Agnes.” I said as if I had any idea who Mrs. Agnes Lawton was.”
“She told how two hundred years ago, maybe not quite, but it was a long time ago.  Mr. Horace Rembolt shot a young man for trespassing.”
“For trespassing?”
“That’s what she said.”  She looked at me with that ‘You’re interrupting again” look.
With the most penitent face I could muster I said, “go on.”
“Anyway, the boy’s father put a curse on Mr. Rembolt and the house.”
I blinked wondering if that was all to the story and if it was, what I had missed.
She must have saw my confusion for she said.  “The boy was the son of some old trapper or hermit or something.”
I tried to imagine how a hermit had a son.
 “Well, this hermit, or whatever he was, and his boy lived deep in the woods.  Everyone in the valley knew the guy was an odd one and were happy that he kept to himself.
“Just because some loony guy said the house was cursed….”  I looked at Lisa as I shook my head again.  “You don’t believe any of that stuff, do you?”
She leaned back, picking up her cup she took a sip from her coffee.  “Well, a few days later Horace Rembolt fell down the steps of that house and died two days later.” 
She looked my way as if the house being cursed was the most logical conclusion the earth had ever seen.
“Come on Lisa.”
Her mouth fell open.  “Oh, I forgot to tell you the most interesting part.”
I rolled my eyes, more interesting than a cursed house.
“Those two days he kept saying how he had been pushed down those stairs…”
That seemed the most logical part of this story.
“That the house pushed him.”
“Pushed by a house?”  I shook my head for the umpteenth time in disbelief.
Lisa drew her eyebrows down and I knew I was in for it.  “You can make fun all you want Marty, but weird things have happened over there for years.”
I’d already told her about Jim Andrews and Barney at the marina, so I wondered what other “weird” things she was talking about.  “Like what?”
“Well for one thing, Mr. Jackson’s dog won’t even walk past the place.”
Mr. Jackson had a Pomeranian, cute dog but not a killer you understand.  If something frightened the dog it wouldn’t make the papers.
“And talking about dogs Amber’s Rocwelier just growls and barks at the brush there.  Amber thinks he knows something wrong about the place.”
We need to respect a dog’s opinion, I thought to myself.
“I know what you’re thinking, Marty, but dogs are smart that way.” 
Just as the sun was setting I wandered the south edge of my lot looking at the briars and raspberries that form a thick uninpenitratable wall between us and the ruins beyond, I tried not to take too seriously the ramblings of an old man, the rumors about a mute and other things, or the behavior of dogs.  It was the twenty-first century for crying out loud.  I had to get real.  So pushing, all that I had convinced myself was nonsense, into a safe box within my mind, I felt at ease when I returned to the house that evening. 
Gave no thought about what lay behind the brambles out of sight for nearly a month when I was awakened out of a deep sleep.  I had no idea what had woken me as I looked over to see Lisa sleeping soundly at my side, but I had the strange sensation of being called.  I checked my phone, nothing there.  Moved quietly downstairs to the doors. There was nothing out front, the light down the street shown bright in the early morning.  From the back deck I saw that a mist was coming off the lake a gray sea of moisture that slowly blanketed the backyard.
Confident that all was well I turned to return to my bed when I sensed it again.  A call felt not heard that sent the hairs on the back of my neck to standing.  The darkness that surrounded me was silent.  The stars above shown bright in the indigo sky as I calmed my breathing, my heart thumping in my ears. 
I felt it again.
The calling came, I was certain, from the brush land to my south. Panic overtook me and I rushed indoors, locked the door, leaned against the frame, my breath racing.  Fear like I had never felt before seemed to prevent me from leaving that spot in the kitchen as I blinked and wiped the perspiration from my brow.
I had seen nothing…heard nothing.  Forcing logic to take control I returned to the bedroom relieved that my beloved yet slept.  But the call came yet again, and moving to the south window I caught sight of a flash of light.  It came from beyond the brambles.  A moment later it shown again.  A soft yellowish flicker of a light that remained only a few brief instants and then fade to black.
I did not sleep well for weeks.  Always expecting the un-hearable call, I often sat for hours at the south window.   But I never saw the light again.
It was the second week in October when I felt the tingling at the back of my neck again.  I jumped like a cat from the bed, so violently that Lisa sat up as well. 
“What’s going on Marty?”  The words of the half awake, slurred but understandable.
“I thought I heard something.”  Perhaps I had, but the sensation familiar.
The room grew still.  “It’s nothing,” she said while settling back and straightening the covers.
I was not so confident.  “I’d better look around.”
Everything was as always.  Inside and outside of the house things were completely normal.  But I felt the call.  It tugged at me.  I moved to the back deck my eyes devouring the night, the shadows and wedges of light that spilled through the trees.  The moon but a sliver gave no aide as I stood with my pulse raging.
Something caught my eye.  I dashed inside for the five cell maglight I had purchased after the first night’s calling.  The bright beam aimed at the row of thorns along the south border.  A gap had been cut in the wall of briars.  Clearing my head as I resisted the call that drew me there, I allowed the beam to sweep over the entire back yard.  Again a thick mist was over the water, rising slowly coming my direction.  The mist, the gap, the constant call, I panicked with my back against the door, trembling.
I knew that the calling came from beyond the trees, from the Rembolt House.  But a blackness swelled out of the rising mist, like a great hand, cold and hard, that wrapped itself around me.  The darkness squeezed my chest and I found myself struggling for breath.  I heard my heart thundering within my head as gasping I drew one breath and then another.  I could move in only one direction and I fought the hand that wished to drag me deeper into the blackness, pushing myself harder back against the door.  Yet all the while I could not take my eyes off the gap in the thorns, as if the force that assailed me waited there…would come for me…from there.
Lisa found me, cowering unable to open the sliding door, most of an hour later when she turned on the kitchen light.  I couldn’t speak as I shook more from the terror than the cold damp night air.  Her eyes were wide as she shouted words I could not understand, words that could not penetrate the calling that only I heard, a calling that wished to possessed me.
How pale she looked, my Lisa.  There was panic in her eyes as well.  Panic driven by a different source than my own.  I stumbled inside and tumbled to the floor in our kitchen when she had finally could wedge opened the door.  And while Lisa did her best to return me to a right mind, I lay pulled up in a fetal lump on the cold tiled floor.
I remembered little of the ambulance ride or the kind men that did their best to straighten me out and lash me to the stretcher.  But in the morning I was as right as rain, and fully aware of what I had seen and felt.  There was, Charley had said, something evil amongst the stones next door.  Something I could not explain. 

 

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I faced two days of observation.  Thousands of questions, the answers would not be fully acceptable.  I answered carefully.  Told them truthfully that I had been frightened by something.  What it was I had no idea.  But I did not speak of the calling.  The subconscious pull that I had fought and on that occasion had beaten.  It seemed those type of words would get me a ticket to a room with padded walls, and I was sane…still.
I could not say which day of the week I returned home.  I felt confused and out of touch.  Lisa had taken off work and her eyes followed every move I took.  I spent the time wondering if I had the strength to resist when the calling came again.  For I was certain it would come…again.  And if it were as much stronger the third time as the second was stronger than the first I doubted I could keep from answering that evil request.
In the afternoon I convinced Lisa to walk with me about the yard.  When we came to the midpoint of the south side of the lawn, I pointed out the hole cut through the thorny barrier that separated our property from Rembolt’s, and told her everything I had seen and felt that night.  Her mouth flew open at the sight of a well-worn footpath that led through the trees.  And our eyes followed that newly tread trail and to the stony crumbling remains of the house so long abandoned.
“We’ll have a fence built.” She said, the slightest tremble in her voice.
“We’re selling the house.” I replied.
We stayed in a hotel that night, never would I sleep in our gray dream house on the lake again. 

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